Biggest Loser

I have never been small, or slim or svelte. I have had a "weight problem" my entire life. I was picked on for other things as a child but my weight is what always made me feel most like a loser to myself. I'm not particularly huge though, I somehow manage to "wear" my weight well. Some would say it's "well distributed" but even at that it doesn't make me feel any better about it. Being well proportioned doesn't mean I feel sexy because I can't even see it as curvy, thick or pleasantly plump. I'm Fat. And I'm DONE being fat I'm done trying this gimick - and that diet, I'm tired of going to the gym and working hard only to come home to a fucking box of cookies or sweets and saying to myself "Oh you worked hard at the gym you can have one" I'm tired of those empty rewards that I make for myself because it's not the reward that I want. I want to stand on a scale and look at my naked body in the mirror and be able to smile at what I'm looking at. I'm tired of all this and I want to be fit so badly but somehow, someway I am still finding it hard to stay motivated, to not giving into the cravings for an oreo cookie or two. But I think I have found a good ( temporary ) motivation. A Weight Loss Challenge! My neighbour is a Trainer and weight loss coach and today was the first day of his winter WLC. The way this challenge works is every person who wants to participate gives the coach 35$. The first day each participant gets weighed and their measurements are taken ( thigh, hip, waist, bust) then every week the group meets up, gets weighed and the coach gives us tips and answers to any questions we might have. Then at the end of 8 weeks the person who has lost the most wins everyone's 35$! Probably the one thing I need more then losing weight is money right now, I'm up to my knees in debt and really, at the end of it all the most I have to lose is my 35$ and the most I have to gain is a kick start towards my goal weight and other people's money! My tunnel vision goal is to lose about 2 pounds a week, push for more because I want to win but 16lbs is what I'm aiming towards.
Day one.
WLC starting weight :   180.8
I will lose 16 Lbs ( or more ) in 8 weeks
And I WILL win everyone's money!