Is not denial, not for me. The first step was believing. I have been thumb wrestling with my weight my entire life. I'm not overly over weight but I'm not comfortable in my own skin and there in lies my first problem. I've been trying for a year now to try and lose the weight I want to lose and get to a healthy 140 pounds. I've paid for a trainer, gone to a nutritionist, religiously attended Zumba classes, bought countless workout DVD's, subscribed to FITNESS magazine, made goal plans, stuck sticky notes with messages and skinny girl images on my walls and googled everything and anything weightloss and ways to target 'Problem Areas' but none of this money spent and hope that ' maybe this will do the trick' hasn't done a thing to change my head to toe "Problem Area.
Then today I had a Buddha moment I realized that no matter how much I WANTED to lose the weight I wasn't able to picture it. So I closed my eyes and I saw it in my mind, and I imagined to feel it with my body. Me.. Thin! In my mind I felt my muffin top smooth out over my hips, I imagined my thighs no longer rubbing, I felt my belly tight and flat and my arms fold into a 90 degree position below my shoulders instead of sticking out to the sides on a slight angle. I pictured myself running in a two piece bathing suit with only a natural jiggle. I imagined my boyfriend being able to easily swing me up in his arms and hold me there. I felt empowered, I felt free and I felt that I COULD have this. I CAN feel this. I can be this girl.
So I got myself a trainer at the gym, I got myself a mantra 'THIN-K' and I got myself a blog, mostly for me but it makes me happy to think that you, the readers ( if I have any ) will enjoy my journey, my writing and maybe even be inspired to kick Denial out of your list of excuses and try Believing on for size, and believe me it fits and feels real nice!
Kirsy
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